Throughout my life I have experimented with different modes of artistic expression by fearlessly exploring the ideas that manifest in my mind- never wavering from that part of my human path and my longing to create. I have always been open to different subject matter as to create fresh style, and have cultivated joy in bringing something out of my mind and into physical reality. Through this self realization...I am an Artist.
Today, I am inspired by the process of automatism in art, which taps into the depths of my psyche and gives way for the freedom of expression to come forth. “Automatism” was originally coined a psychology term, referring to the involuntary actions of the human mind and body. In the 1920’s Surrealist artists applied the theory of automatic actions to artistic practices. Ranging from drawing and painting to writing, these artists sought to unleash the subconscious mind. Much like automatism, my practice of meditation has been another vehicle that allows me the space to tap into my “automatic”, subconscious self. Meditation and automatism, combined, are the keys that unlock my creative.
As I continue to engage with the practice of automatism, I take note of the recurrent themes and motifs that are unveiled through my work. Among the various recurring motifs, the spiral, a symbol inherited from the natural world, seems to function as an innate expression of my subconscious. Carl Jung believed the spiral to be an archetypal symbol that represented cosmic force. I find the spiral to be enticing, not only for its mathematical fascination, but particularly for its beauty, its wealth of variation, mutability, infinity and movement.
During my time as a therapeutic art instructor at The Stramski Children’s Developmental Center at Miller Children's Hospital, I worked with children that had been clinically diagnosed with autism, fragile X, ADD/ADHD, and selective mutism. Through this experience, I was inspired by the children’s ability to tap into the “self”, by way of artistic expression. Unplagued by premeditation, and fueled by the ability to exercise the most profound form of creativity, these children exhibited an innate form of brilliance. From this experience, I have developed a deep interest in exploring the automatic flow of the self.
I continue to ask myself what the connection between the Greek prefix aut/auto, meaning the "self", and its relationship to metaphysically understanding the words, Automatism, Autism, and Authentic.
Having always been a proponent for living an authentic life, the idea of the “self” is a cornerstone in understanding and accepting oneself, by becoming liberated from social constructs and expectations. The intuitive inclination of the “self”, is inherent in every individual, but requires nurturing and close attention. In observing children with autism, I have come to believe that these individuals are a link to the flow of the “self”. Through societal constructs, the innate brilliance of individuals with autism, and other savant behaviors, is misunderstood and categorized as a disability. It can take much effort for society to see, but for myself this connection is clear and worthy of exploration.
I am inspired by the purpose that my work has been able to serve, and the change that it can impact. The therapeutic value of automatism in art is immeasurable; through this process I have been able to welcome myself into full existence. Today, I see my artworks as emblems of healing- each offering up a gentle and sometimes abrasive narrative of disparate journeys towards the self and serenity.